Post by Hans Schokkenbroek on May 23, 2018 8:51:56 GMT
I have not been very active on the forum in terms of writing and that has reasons. One I have already explained elsewhere. I simply have realised that reading posts on a forum is still watching the mirror as opposed to focussing internally and manifesting those things that I believe to be important. One can only focus on one or the other. Both can be useful to help our Relations. Posting is providing information / opinions that may bring new perspective or new information to those that seek it on the forum. Or one can learn from others of course. Manifesting, using our creational power to create the Tara / Gaia we wish for others is vital as well. Having spent many years dedicating myself to learning, discerning and sharing I now feel more drawn to the latter. Also, my business life has become much more busy (just like Henrik) and it involves working with Iran a lot. A country that desperately needs all the help it can get to remain out of the claws of the Military Industrial Complex.
Whilst reading some posts on the forum (which I still do every day) I suddenly decided to share what has happened lately on my personal spiritual journey. This has to do with an invitation that I received through the mail from Dr Bruce Lipton. For those that do not know, Bruce is a stem cell biologist who came to the realisation in his work that there is something like consciousness that connects us all. He discovered something that most spiritually aware people know. We can heal ourselves and we are master of our genes as opposed to victims of our genes. He wrote the Biology of Belief. Anyway, I subscribe to his newsletter and that is about the only subscription i have which is odd but it turned out to have a reason. Early March this year I received his newsletter and it contained an open invitation for 40 non natives to participate in a Sundance ritual. A very rare opportunity as normally Sundances are very much off limits for outsiders. However, in this case the Sundance chief truly upholds the idea that we are ALL children of Mother Gaia / Tara and therefor has opened up the event to some outsiders. And...... the Sundance chief is called White Standing Buffalo.
It was immediately obvious to me that this was no coincidence (as there are none) and I asked myself if I had to respond to the invitation. YES! To make sure I journeyed and asked White Buffalo if I had to go. Again a big YES and I also received a vision of a Raven with a turkey feather in her beak.
Raven is the Shaman who was sent to put me onto the Shamanic path on the WPP forum. She told me a while back that she has a turkey feather ready for me to collect when I feel I am ready. Now I probably will never feel ready to 'be' a Shaman as there is sooo much to learn and I lack the access to Elders to teach me in the traditional ways. Raven just happens to live a few hours from the location where the Sundance event will be held. So all in all it was clear. I have to attend the Sundance event and then I have to collect my Turkey feather from Raven....
My dear wife still struggles enormously with my spiritual awakening and does not want to know about it. In fact, she is one of the few persons in my circle who does not know that I am White Buffalo. Of course this will all change if I do go to the event..... It seems that the Universe has provided me with the perfect opportunity to 'force' the issue. Regardless of my wife's feelings, my Heart and White Buffalo tell me to do this so I have no other choice then to follow my feelings. All is well.
So I decided to write to Bruce and White Standing Buffalo. The contents of the email is below:
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Dear White Standing Buffalo, Dear Bruce
My Passport name is Hans Schokkenbroek. My Native American / Shamanic name is White Buffalo of the Low Country. I am 54 years young, live in the Netherlands, am a trained Petroleum Engineer.
My only focus in life is to serve all my Relations as best I can.
Since my Spiritual awakening some 5 years ago my path has taken many twists and turns. Initially I was drawn to the Avatar courses which helped me to remember how to feel from the Heart. From that moment I learnt to listen to my Heart and I bought many books and followed a number of Spiritual courses simply by listening to my Heart. One of the most profound experiences was a course called "Awakening the Illuminated Heart" which resulted in my Consciousness being permanently placed in my Heart. Time and time again my Heart started glowing whenever I needed to read something or do something and time and time again it proved to be right thing to do. So I have learned to completely trust my feelings, to live from my Heart. It is also this way that I came across the beautiful work of Bruce Lipton.
In June of 2016 I had a Vision, a dream. Earlier that day I had met with a Dutch friend who had informed me of something amazing. She was (and is) being coached by a Hopi Elder. This is extremely rare and a great honour, and I was immediately drawn to it and needed to hear from her. So I met up with her and she told me what she was allowed to share. I was hoping that this Hopi Elder would also be willing to coach me and asked my friend if she could make an introduction. That evening I had the Vision. A White Buffalo came to see me together with her herd. It was and still is the most profound and 'real' experience I have ever had. Normally my dreams are not very illustrative but this experience was more 'real' than anything I had ever seen. I could smell the damp coat of White Buffalo, I could see the warm air coming from her nostrils and I felt the warmth of her body when I was allowed to cuddle her. I also noticed that She had a red and a blue eye. When I woke up the next morning I had no idea as to the meaning of this dream. I thought maybe it was Grandmother Jeremy (the Hopi Elder) who visited me to check if I was worthy of being coached by her. But I was not sure. I was baffled.
It was about 4 months later that the meaning became clear. I was part of a forum on the internet where people can share spiritual insights, learn from each other, heal each other and help improve this world. Unfortunately I do not (yet) have access to Native Elders and I have to follow my Heart to find knowledge.
A new member called Raven emerged on the forum and she started to post about Shamanism. I had little knowledge of the subject but was immediately drawn to her posts. At some point she posted a meditation video to find your Power Animal. I did the meditation and was stunned; A Golden (Spotted) Eagle, Brown Buffalo, Dolpin and King Cobra were there for me! I recognised that Shamanism is important for me and asked Raven if she could help and guide me in obtaining more knowledge on this subject. I also learned that Raven is a Shaman who received her Turkey Feather from Oh Shinnah Fast Wolf. Then I suddenly remembered my Vision. So I told Raven about the experience and asked if she knew the relevance. She suggested that White Buffalo could be my Totem Animal. My Heart exploded with a knowing. I asked my Higher Self if White Buffalo is my Totem Animal and got a big Yes!!
So I went on the internet and searched for 'White Buffalo Totem' and the very first link I found offered an explanation about the White Buffalo Spirit. (http://www.crystalwind.ca/animal-totems/spirit-of-white-buffalo).
When I read the following lines I was stunned, yet also extremely humbled and dazzled by the honour and responsibility of what lay before me;
When Great Spirit moved its Creative Force across the expanse of the Earth Mother, a Doorway was left between the Blue Road of Spirit and the Red Road of Physical Life. And yet there remained a chasm between the Planes that the two-legged found difficult to cross. So Great Spirit called upon White Buffalo that she fashion a Bridge to link the two Planes together.
I could not believe it. The red and blue eyes of White Buffalo in my vision and the reason why she came to me were explained... I suddenly became aware of my Life's Purpose... A great and humbling honour yet also a tremendous responsibility...
So from that day I focussed on becoming White Buffalo of the Low Country. I learnt as much as I could about Shamanism, knowing it is my path. It puzzled me though why a typical Native American Spiritual Being would visit me, a white boy from the Netherlands. Yet I knew what I had experienced......
Again it was months before I found the answer. Of course I tried to Journey as soon as I learnt about it. Yet for some reason I was unable to do so. I felt something was blocking me and I just accepted it knowing there was a reason for it. It was one of my spiritual friends who suggested the obvious; I must have had a life as a Native American Shaman, otherwise White Buffalo would have never visited me. My Heart exploded with the knowing. Sooo obvious.... It was mid summer last year. It was a warm day and I was sitting behind my computer typing a mail to my spiritual friend. The doors to the garden were open. Whilst typing I heard a sound coming from the sitting cupboard next to the PC. Realising that it was an insect I pulled back the cupboard and found it was a tiny Dragonfly trapped in a tiny Spiders' web. I freed the Dragonfly and released it in the garden. My Heart opened in joy and I returned to the PC. Recognising this experience as a sign I searched for the meaning of seeing a Dragonfly. What resonated with me was "The opening of one's eyes" and "Gaining a new spiritual insight". With that knowledge I returned to my mail when almost immediately an insight struck me.
Many Native Americans are aware of the Lakota Legend of White Buffalo Calf Woman. Of course I had read this legend because I searched the internet for everything I could find about White Buffalo. This is the most widely known Legend related to White Buffalo and of course the Lakota still have the Sacred Pipe which is to be used for the 7 Sacred Rituals. But I had also become aware of another version of this Legend. This one is from the Kiowa Apaches and it concerns a very small tribe (46 people). It is similar to the Lakota story with a surprising twist. It suggests that White Buffalo Woman came to this small and nomadic tribe to teach them the Sacred Rituals. When she left she warned the Tribe of darkness coming. Shortly after she had left the camp it was raided by a Lakota tribe who murdered all men, women and children, killed the White Buffalo, left behind by White Buffalo Woman, and took the Sacred Pipe. They then made up their own version of the Legend and this has been with the Lakota ever since. In other words, this version implies that the Lakota Legend is based on lies and murder. For some reason I always felt that the Kiowa Apache legend is the True Legend. I am fully aware and respect that most Lakota simply know their Legend as the truth and for them it is extremely sacred. It matters not if the Kiowa Apache legend is the truth. What matters is the teachings and meaning of the Legend for the Lakota and that is Pure and Good.
Back to the insight. I suddenly realised that I was the Shaman of the Kiowa Apache tribe on which the Legend is based. The insight made my Heart explode. I checked with my Higher Self and it was confirmed.... Wowwwww. Another insight then entered my mind. A few months before I had a very strange encounter with an Indian woman, a Spiritual Leader in her own right, whom I told about my vision of White Buffalo. When she asked if I was aware of the Lakota Legend I said yes. But I also added that for me this was not the truth. These words came out of me before I realised I said them. It was like my Higher Self was steering me. She looked up at me silently and then said "I am Lakota". She turned and walked away, clearly insulted. I later sought her out, apologised if my words had offended her and then met her and really connected with her. Although we never spoke a another word about White Buffalo in that exchange. The experience really baffled me. It was strange and I knew it had meaning which would maybe become apparent at some later stage.
Well, the second insight was that this woman must be a Soul who was part of the Lakota war party that had murdered me and my tribe. I felt a strong need to go back to this life so I told the background to a friend of mine who had helped me with several regressions and I asked him to bring me back to this experience. On that day I was expecting him to bring me back to this life but instead he asked me to call the Lakota woman. I did and immediately my throat became choked. Michael, my friend, asked if this was she trying to prevent me from finding out the truth. It was. Michael forced her to let go and then we went back to the experience of that fateful night. It turned out that the Lakota woman was the very Soul who walked into the Kiowa Apache camp, learnt about the Rituals and Sacred Pipe. It was this Soul who later convinced his Lakota tribe to raid the camp, to kill the White Buffalo and the tribe. I experienced the killing of my loved ones but at some point we managed to stop it. Michael asked the Lakota woman how she was going to repent and make things good and eventually she promised to help me in this life. I forgave all her actions so I was released from all the energetic hooks and restored balance. Michael explained later that he immediately knew the Lakota woman was involved somehow. He saw that the initial exchange was a clash of energies of unresolved issues and guilt.
When I returned home after the regression I tried to Journey (which I had not tried for a long time) and for the very first time managed to do so! If found my Space in the Lower World and met up with White Buffalo and my other Power Animals! The energy hooks from that terrible experience had been cleared!
When I mailed Raven, who resides in Montana, with the great news of my insights and Journeying experiences, she responded with great joy. She also gave me the tremendous honour of offering one of her Turkey Feathers to me, in recognition that I was a Native American Shaman at some point. Ever since I have been busy remembering my Shamanic skills, journeying for others, doing healings, divinations and Soul Retrievals. I will never call myself a Shaman. That is not up to me but my Journeys seem effective and I seem to know what to do simply based on my intuition. And ever since I have felt a very strong need to reconnect with my Native American roots/ So at some point I will revisit my Lands and People in the US. I have been looking for a sign for this time to come.
Today I received the mail from Bruce Lipton with the invitation for the 3rd Annual Sun Dance Experience. And I also see that White Standing Buffalo is involved. Although I was pretty sure, based on my feelings, that this is the clear sign, I wanted to be sure. So I journeyed this morning to my Space in the Lower World and asked White Buffalo if and why I should attend the 3rd Annual Sun Dance Experience. What came to me was a strong yes. I have to attend this Experience. Also a vision of Raven with a Turkey Feather in her beak came to me. So it seems that this is the Event that will allow me not only to reconnect with my Native American roots, to experience the wonders of a Sun Dance, but it also will be the time when I can collect my Turkey Feather from Raven, although I feel I am just a beginner when it gets to Shamanism and still not worthy of receiving my Turkey Feather.
I am in full realisation that I have no Elders to guide me and to counsel me about all the experiences I have had. Yet I know that we are ALL Brothers and Sisters and I know what I have experienced. We all have different paths. White Buffalo has given me the great honour of seeking me out and bestowing this great responsibility of helping ALL my Relations but in particular the Two-Leggeds. I am humbled and still not sure why this has happened.
I have no idea how I can arrange the finances and the time for this Event but I know that White Buffalo will provide all necessary resources if this is meant to be. I hope you recognise the Truth in my words and find it in your Hearts to offer me one of the 40 spots. In any case I thank you and honour the Cree for organising this wonderful Experience, recognising that we are all Relations, no matter what our backgrounds are.
I see you, I thank you and I honour you,
White Buffalo of the Low Country.
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So on April 30 I received the invitation! I am one of the 40 lucky persons to be given the opportunity to experience a Sundance! I know it will be extremely important for me. I often wonder if I am living up the tremendous responsibility of being White Buffalo and I know this experience will bring me many spiritual insights to help me to be White Buffalo to the best of my ability.
One of the realisations I have had wrt manifesting is that there is NO limit to what you can create. The sentient Crystals that form this virtual reality / simulation can only do one thing and that is to follow our instructions. These instructions come from your thoughts, words and intentions. So the financial resources to go to the event simply appeared in a way that I could never have imagined. My father died unexpectedly after a lovely and very fulfilling life and left, very unexpectedly, an apartment that was worth a lot more than the mortgage. Not only has my father joined his beloved wife but he has also ensured that I have sufficient financial resources for a long while. Thank you dad. When it gets to manifesting it is my experience that it is very important to focus on what you want and not be concerned with how you are going to get it. Simply visualise the end goal, see it, feel it, be it, experience it as though you already have it and the Crystals can only respond to your creative will. That is that their part of the bargain and that is the reason why I always thank all of creation in this World.
Then of course I had to face my wife Barbara with this news. We had a 6 day holiday break playing golf with my son in Portugal. So I told her on the last evening that I had received an invitation for a Sundance Experience in Canada. She immediately exploded in tears and anger claiming I had ruined her entire holiday... It is sometimes hard to watch my wife have this war between her mind and her Heart. In her Heart she loves me and does not want to leave me. Yet her mind is still infused with all the indoctrinations of her life (and previous lives) and she feels victimised because her husband has suddenly gone spiritual. I always try to see everything that could be perceived as negative as a learning experience and I have learned to remain happy although my wife and best buddy may be unhappy at times. Raven once told me that I cannot truly be White Buffalo if I cannot be completely open to my wife about who I truly am. But try as I may she was up to now never willing to hear my story. Whenever I tried to tell her she would simply shut down and say she did not want to hear nor know. And I had to respect that. So when she exploded this time I said something along the lines of "Well if you are that upset about it I can always cancel the trip". She has learned, and this is part of her awakening, to let go quicker and quicker. Her experience has shown that it does not do her any good by dwelling on 'negative' things that I have brought upon her in her mind. So the next morning all was well again and we went on with our 'normal' lives. So I waited another week. Contemplated things and it was all too obvious for me. There was only one course of action. To tell her this is extremely important to me and that I will go no matter what and that I trust she will respect and accept it. So at the right moment (which of course there never is) I sat down with her and said I had thought about our exchange a bit more and wished to discuss it with her. She immediately broke in tears and exclaimed that "I was going to make her let me go and I was going to get my way again". Mind you, I only said that I wished to speak to her about it. My response was that I indeed want to go and that it is extremely important to me. I remained very calm. Again that was the end of the conversation. The next day we were playing together in the club championships mixed foursomes (for the golfers out there) and won our first match. We played and interacted beautifully on a lovely sunny day. The afternoon was free and we had a lovely day overall. In the evening we were sitting together on the couch and then suddenly she grabbed my hand and whispered "You can go to the event. It will only do me harm if I do not let you go. But I do want to have a long conversation about it". So not only is she at ease with me going but she finally wants to know more about it! That evening we had wonderful sex for the first time in a long long time. So a major step has been taken in my personal life and of course I am very much looking forward to the experiences in Canada.
My apologies for a very very long post but I just wanted to share this with my spiritual friends. Surely some of you have or have had similar experiences with your spouses in your spiritual evolution. So maybe it will be of help to someone on this forum.
Of course I will let you know what happened in Canada (end of June).
Love White Buffalo
Whilst reading some posts on the forum (which I still do every day) I suddenly decided to share what has happened lately on my personal spiritual journey. This has to do with an invitation that I received through the mail from Dr Bruce Lipton. For those that do not know, Bruce is a stem cell biologist who came to the realisation in his work that there is something like consciousness that connects us all. He discovered something that most spiritually aware people know. We can heal ourselves and we are master of our genes as opposed to victims of our genes. He wrote the Biology of Belief. Anyway, I subscribe to his newsletter and that is about the only subscription i have which is odd but it turned out to have a reason. Early March this year I received his newsletter and it contained an open invitation for 40 non natives to participate in a Sundance ritual. A very rare opportunity as normally Sundances are very much off limits for outsiders. However, in this case the Sundance chief truly upholds the idea that we are ALL children of Mother Gaia / Tara and therefor has opened up the event to some outsiders. And...... the Sundance chief is called White Standing Buffalo.
It was immediately obvious to me that this was no coincidence (as there are none) and I asked myself if I had to respond to the invitation. YES! To make sure I journeyed and asked White Buffalo if I had to go. Again a big YES and I also received a vision of a Raven with a turkey feather in her beak.
Raven is the Shaman who was sent to put me onto the Shamanic path on the WPP forum. She told me a while back that she has a turkey feather ready for me to collect when I feel I am ready. Now I probably will never feel ready to 'be' a Shaman as there is sooo much to learn and I lack the access to Elders to teach me in the traditional ways. Raven just happens to live a few hours from the location where the Sundance event will be held. So all in all it was clear. I have to attend the Sundance event and then I have to collect my Turkey feather from Raven....
My dear wife still struggles enormously with my spiritual awakening and does not want to know about it. In fact, she is one of the few persons in my circle who does not know that I am White Buffalo. Of course this will all change if I do go to the event..... It seems that the Universe has provided me with the perfect opportunity to 'force' the issue. Regardless of my wife's feelings, my Heart and White Buffalo tell me to do this so I have no other choice then to follow my feelings. All is well.
So I decided to write to Bruce and White Standing Buffalo. The contents of the email is below:
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Dear White Standing Buffalo, Dear Bruce
My Passport name is Hans Schokkenbroek. My Native American / Shamanic name is White Buffalo of the Low Country. I am 54 years young, live in the Netherlands, am a trained Petroleum Engineer.
My only focus in life is to serve all my Relations as best I can.
Since my Spiritual awakening some 5 years ago my path has taken many twists and turns. Initially I was drawn to the Avatar courses which helped me to remember how to feel from the Heart. From that moment I learnt to listen to my Heart and I bought many books and followed a number of Spiritual courses simply by listening to my Heart. One of the most profound experiences was a course called "Awakening the Illuminated Heart" which resulted in my Consciousness being permanently placed in my Heart. Time and time again my Heart started glowing whenever I needed to read something or do something and time and time again it proved to be right thing to do. So I have learned to completely trust my feelings, to live from my Heart. It is also this way that I came across the beautiful work of Bruce Lipton.
In June of 2016 I had a Vision, a dream. Earlier that day I had met with a Dutch friend who had informed me of something amazing. She was (and is) being coached by a Hopi Elder. This is extremely rare and a great honour, and I was immediately drawn to it and needed to hear from her. So I met up with her and she told me what she was allowed to share. I was hoping that this Hopi Elder would also be willing to coach me and asked my friend if she could make an introduction. That evening I had the Vision. A White Buffalo came to see me together with her herd. It was and still is the most profound and 'real' experience I have ever had. Normally my dreams are not very illustrative but this experience was more 'real' than anything I had ever seen. I could smell the damp coat of White Buffalo, I could see the warm air coming from her nostrils and I felt the warmth of her body when I was allowed to cuddle her. I also noticed that She had a red and a blue eye. When I woke up the next morning I had no idea as to the meaning of this dream. I thought maybe it was Grandmother Jeremy (the Hopi Elder) who visited me to check if I was worthy of being coached by her. But I was not sure. I was baffled.
It was about 4 months later that the meaning became clear. I was part of a forum on the internet where people can share spiritual insights, learn from each other, heal each other and help improve this world. Unfortunately I do not (yet) have access to Native Elders and I have to follow my Heart to find knowledge.
A new member called Raven emerged on the forum and she started to post about Shamanism. I had little knowledge of the subject but was immediately drawn to her posts. At some point she posted a meditation video to find your Power Animal. I did the meditation and was stunned; A Golden (Spotted) Eagle, Brown Buffalo, Dolpin and King Cobra were there for me! I recognised that Shamanism is important for me and asked Raven if she could help and guide me in obtaining more knowledge on this subject. I also learned that Raven is a Shaman who received her Turkey Feather from Oh Shinnah Fast Wolf. Then I suddenly remembered my Vision. So I told Raven about the experience and asked if she knew the relevance. She suggested that White Buffalo could be my Totem Animal. My Heart exploded with a knowing. I asked my Higher Self if White Buffalo is my Totem Animal and got a big Yes!!
So I went on the internet and searched for 'White Buffalo Totem' and the very first link I found offered an explanation about the White Buffalo Spirit. (http://www.crystalwind.ca/animal-totems/spirit-of-white-buffalo).
When I read the following lines I was stunned, yet also extremely humbled and dazzled by the honour and responsibility of what lay before me;
When Great Spirit moved its Creative Force across the expanse of the Earth Mother, a Doorway was left between the Blue Road of Spirit and the Red Road of Physical Life. And yet there remained a chasm between the Planes that the two-legged found difficult to cross. So Great Spirit called upon White Buffalo that she fashion a Bridge to link the two Planes together.
I could not believe it. The red and blue eyes of White Buffalo in my vision and the reason why she came to me were explained... I suddenly became aware of my Life's Purpose... A great and humbling honour yet also a tremendous responsibility...
So from that day I focussed on becoming White Buffalo of the Low Country. I learnt as much as I could about Shamanism, knowing it is my path. It puzzled me though why a typical Native American Spiritual Being would visit me, a white boy from the Netherlands. Yet I knew what I had experienced......
Again it was months before I found the answer. Of course I tried to Journey as soon as I learnt about it. Yet for some reason I was unable to do so. I felt something was blocking me and I just accepted it knowing there was a reason for it. It was one of my spiritual friends who suggested the obvious; I must have had a life as a Native American Shaman, otherwise White Buffalo would have never visited me. My Heart exploded with the knowing. Sooo obvious.... It was mid summer last year. It was a warm day and I was sitting behind my computer typing a mail to my spiritual friend. The doors to the garden were open. Whilst typing I heard a sound coming from the sitting cupboard next to the PC. Realising that it was an insect I pulled back the cupboard and found it was a tiny Dragonfly trapped in a tiny Spiders' web. I freed the Dragonfly and released it in the garden. My Heart opened in joy and I returned to the PC. Recognising this experience as a sign I searched for the meaning of seeing a Dragonfly. What resonated with me was "The opening of one's eyes" and "Gaining a new spiritual insight". With that knowledge I returned to my mail when almost immediately an insight struck me.
Many Native Americans are aware of the Lakota Legend of White Buffalo Calf Woman. Of course I had read this legend because I searched the internet for everything I could find about White Buffalo. This is the most widely known Legend related to White Buffalo and of course the Lakota still have the Sacred Pipe which is to be used for the 7 Sacred Rituals. But I had also become aware of another version of this Legend. This one is from the Kiowa Apaches and it concerns a very small tribe (46 people). It is similar to the Lakota story with a surprising twist. It suggests that White Buffalo Woman came to this small and nomadic tribe to teach them the Sacred Rituals. When she left she warned the Tribe of darkness coming. Shortly after she had left the camp it was raided by a Lakota tribe who murdered all men, women and children, killed the White Buffalo, left behind by White Buffalo Woman, and took the Sacred Pipe. They then made up their own version of the Legend and this has been with the Lakota ever since. In other words, this version implies that the Lakota Legend is based on lies and murder. For some reason I always felt that the Kiowa Apache legend is the True Legend. I am fully aware and respect that most Lakota simply know their Legend as the truth and for them it is extremely sacred. It matters not if the Kiowa Apache legend is the truth. What matters is the teachings and meaning of the Legend for the Lakota and that is Pure and Good.
Back to the insight. I suddenly realised that I was the Shaman of the Kiowa Apache tribe on which the Legend is based. The insight made my Heart explode. I checked with my Higher Self and it was confirmed.... Wowwwww. Another insight then entered my mind. A few months before I had a very strange encounter with an Indian woman, a Spiritual Leader in her own right, whom I told about my vision of White Buffalo. When she asked if I was aware of the Lakota Legend I said yes. But I also added that for me this was not the truth. These words came out of me before I realised I said them. It was like my Higher Self was steering me. She looked up at me silently and then said "I am Lakota". She turned and walked away, clearly insulted. I later sought her out, apologised if my words had offended her and then met her and really connected with her. Although we never spoke a another word about White Buffalo in that exchange. The experience really baffled me. It was strange and I knew it had meaning which would maybe become apparent at some later stage.
Well, the second insight was that this woman must be a Soul who was part of the Lakota war party that had murdered me and my tribe. I felt a strong need to go back to this life so I told the background to a friend of mine who had helped me with several regressions and I asked him to bring me back to this experience. On that day I was expecting him to bring me back to this life but instead he asked me to call the Lakota woman. I did and immediately my throat became choked. Michael, my friend, asked if this was she trying to prevent me from finding out the truth. It was. Michael forced her to let go and then we went back to the experience of that fateful night. It turned out that the Lakota woman was the very Soul who walked into the Kiowa Apache camp, learnt about the Rituals and Sacred Pipe. It was this Soul who later convinced his Lakota tribe to raid the camp, to kill the White Buffalo and the tribe. I experienced the killing of my loved ones but at some point we managed to stop it. Michael asked the Lakota woman how she was going to repent and make things good and eventually she promised to help me in this life. I forgave all her actions so I was released from all the energetic hooks and restored balance. Michael explained later that he immediately knew the Lakota woman was involved somehow. He saw that the initial exchange was a clash of energies of unresolved issues and guilt.
When I returned home after the regression I tried to Journey (which I had not tried for a long time) and for the very first time managed to do so! If found my Space in the Lower World and met up with White Buffalo and my other Power Animals! The energy hooks from that terrible experience had been cleared!
When I mailed Raven, who resides in Montana, with the great news of my insights and Journeying experiences, she responded with great joy. She also gave me the tremendous honour of offering one of her Turkey Feathers to me, in recognition that I was a Native American Shaman at some point. Ever since I have been busy remembering my Shamanic skills, journeying for others, doing healings, divinations and Soul Retrievals. I will never call myself a Shaman. That is not up to me but my Journeys seem effective and I seem to know what to do simply based on my intuition. And ever since I have felt a very strong need to reconnect with my Native American roots/ So at some point I will revisit my Lands and People in the US. I have been looking for a sign for this time to come.
Today I received the mail from Bruce Lipton with the invitation for the 3rd Annual Sun Dance Experience. And I also see that White Standing Buffalo is involved. Although I was pretty sure, based on my feelings, that this is the clear sign, I wanted to be sure. So I journeyed this morning to my Space in the Lower World and asked White Buffalo if and why I should attend the 3rd Annual Sun Dance Experience. What came to me was a strong yes. I have to attend this Experience. Also a vision of Raven with a Turkey Feather in her beak came to me. So it seems that this is the Event that will allow me not only to reconnect with my Native American roots, to experience the wonders of a Sun Dance, but it also will be the time when I can collect my Turkey Feather from Raven, although I feel I am just a beginner when it gets to Shamanism and still not worthy of receiving my Turkey Feather.
I am in full realisation that I have no Elders to guide me and to counsel me about all the experiences I have had. Yet I know that we are ALL Brothers and Sisters and I know what I have experienced. We all have different paths. White Buffalo has given me the great honour of seeking me out and bestowing this great responsibility of helping ALL my Relations but in particular the Two-Leggeds. I am humbled and still not sure why this has happened.
I have no idea how I can arrange the finances and the time for this Event but I know that White Buffalo will provide all necessary resources if this is meant to be. I hope you recognise the Truth in my words and find it in your Hearts to offer me one of the 40 spots. In any case I thank you and honour the Cree for organising this wonderful Experience, recognising that we are all Relations, no matter what our backgrounds are.
I see you, I thank you and I honour you,
White Buffalo of the Low Country.
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So on April 30 I received the invitation! I am one of the 40 lucky persons to be given the opportunity to experience a Sundance! I know it will be extremely important for me. I often wonder if I am living up the tremendous responsibility of being White Buffalo and I know this experience will bring me many spiritual insights to help me to be White Buffalo to the best of my ability.
One of the realisations I have had wrt manifesting is that there is NO limit to what you can create. The sentient Crystals that form this virtual reality / simulation can only do one thing and that is to follow our instructions. These instructions come from your thoughts, words and intentions. So the financial resources to go to the event simply appeared in a way that I could never have imagined. My father died unexpectedly after a lovely and very fulfilling life and left, very unexpectedly, an apartment that was worth a lot more than the mortgage. Not only has my father joined his beloved wife but he has also ensured that I have sufficient financial resources for a long while. Thank you dad. When it gets to manifesting it is my experience that it is very important to focus on what you want and not be concerned with how you are going to get it. Simply visualise the end goal, see it, feel it, be it, experience it as though you already have it and the Crystals can only respond to your creative will. That is that their part of the bargain and that is the reason why I always thank all of creation in this World.
Then of course I had to face my wife Barbara with this news. We had a 6 day holiday break playing golf with my son in Portugal. So I told her on the last evening that I had received an invitation for a Sundance Experience in Canada. She immediately exploded in tears and anger claiming I had ruined her entire holiday... It is sometimes hard to watch my wife have this war between her mind and her Heart. In her Heart she loves me and does not want to leave me. Yet her mind is still infused with all the indoctrinations of her life (and previous lives) and she feels victimised because her husband has suddenly gone spiritual. I always try to see everything that could be perceived as negative as a learning experience and I have learned to remain happy although my wife and best buddy may be unhappy at times. Raven once told me that I cannot truly be White Buffalo if I cannot be completely open to my wife about who I truly am. But try as I may she was up to now never willing to hear my story. Whenever I tried to tell her she would simply shut down and say she did not want to hear nor know. And I had to respect that. So when she exploded this time I said something along the lines of "Well if you are that upset about it I can always cancel the trip". She has learned, and this is part of her awakening, to let go quicker and quicker. Her experience has shown that it does not do her any good by dwelling on 'negative' things that I have brought upon her in her mind. So the next morning all was well again and we went on with our 'normal' lives. So I waited another week. Contemplated things and it was all too obvious for me. There was only one course of action. To tell her this is extremely important to me and that I will go no matter what and that I trust she will respect and accept it. So at the right moment (which of course there never is) I sat down with her and said I had thought about our exchange a bit more and wished to discuss it with her. She immediately broke in tears and exclaimed that "I was going to make her let me go and I was going to get my way again". Mind you, I only said that I wished to speak to her about it. My response was that I indeed want to go and that it is extremely important to me. I remained very calm. Again that was the end of the conversation. The next day we were playing together in the club championships mixed foursomes (for the golfers out there) and won our first match. We played and interacted beautifully on a lovely sunny day. The afternoon was free and we had a lovely day overall. In the evening we were sitting together on the couch and then suddenly she grabbed my hand and whispered "You can go to the event. It will only do me harm if I do not let you go. But I do want to have a long conversation about it". So not only is she at ease with me going but she finally wants to know more about it! That evening we had wonderful sex for the first time in a long long time. So a major step has been taken in my personal life and of course I am very much looking forward to the experiences in Canada.
My apologies for a very very long post but I just wanted to share this with my spiritual friends. Surely some of you have or have had similar experiences with your spouses in your spiritual evolution. So maybe it will be of help to someone on this forum.
Of course I will let you know what happened in Canada (end of June).
Love White Buffalo