Post by Blossom on Oct 1, 2019 10:13:30 GMT
This is one of the video's that Gemma Beall (wife of Endall) has made. I have taken out some parts that really really resonated with me about how we don't need to cling to our victim- and survivorhood. People need to realize that it is the emotions that need to be healed, not the abuse done to you. I remember how until some years ago I did exactly that and how I now achieved emotional neutrality. When I think of or talk about the emotional abuse in my life, the emotions have dissapeared. I even have come so far now that I don't feel the need anymore to talk about it. What is also so important is that one needs to treat these experiences as just experiences. People claiming they are victim or survivor of what happened to them have the tendency to identify themselves with the emotional trauma or cancer or any other event.
This is the first part:
"Once I was able to obtain emotional neutrality and remove my emotions from the equation and look at my experiences as an observer without emotions, I discovered that I was responsible for about 90% of my emotional trauma, not the borderline narcissists I had relationships with. When I looked at the other emotional traumas that I had also experienced, but not from a romantic relationship, I also realized that about 90% of those were caused by my own emotions. Emotions are the rule of the 1st cog, because emotions are the weapon that the ego virus chose to use to keep us under its control. Emotions in and of themselves are not necessarily a bad thing, but when they become the ruling force in one’s life through being overreactive and reactionary and they are for most people, it can end up in a disaster that can leave marks and very deep scars within the psyche and the cellular system of the form. Emotions cloud our judgement, they overrule pragmatism, they become the drug that makes us feel alive and when we aren’t experiencing them in a steroidal state we feel empty, numb and we look for any and everything to give us that fix, that emotional rush. .... But in reflection of things, it isn’t psychological abuse that we experience, it’s emotional abuse that affects the psyche. There is a difference. For those who want to argue this point ask yourself this question: “In instances of relationships in the psychological abuse that you experienced, would you have been with that person if you didn’t have emotions for them?” If the answer to that question is no, then it was emotional abuse. Even if it was a parent, the emotions are the underlying issue that caused the effect to the psyche, because as children we love our parents, even when we fear them or don’t like them. And that emotion is what causes the psychological trauma. Even in cases of abuse by someone you don’t love or don’t even know, fear is the emotion that creates the trauma. If this was a situation for you, would you have experienced the trauma if you weren’t in an emotionally fearful state? Balancing emotions isn’t the same as suppressing emotions. And most 1st cog modalities teach about suppressing negative emotions and fostering positive emotions as the cure but I ask you this: “If love is the cure, regardless of whether it is self-love or the love of others, then why isn’t everyone that has been self loving spreading the love or soaking up the love that the New Age pipes out daily through their meditations? Why isn’t everyone healed? Most of the people listening to this video more than likely have emotional scars and baggage they want to heal themselves from. If you’re one of them and you have done all the love shit, yet still find yourself scarred and traumatized, you need to ask yourself why. I can answer the question, because emotions are the cause, not the cure. In doing the internal ego deconstruction, balanced emotions is the natural outcome. Nothing is suppressed, regardless of what happens to us or by whom, we have to take responsibility for it. This doens’t mean that the other person doesn’t have responsibility, because we AREN’T taking responsibility for their actions or behaviors, we are OWNING our responsibility for what we ALLOWED to happen due to INACTION on our part, or our INABILITY to stop it, how we REACTED emotionally to what happened, and how we MOVE FORWARD from there. The odds that the other person will take responsibility for their actions are slim to none. So holding out emotionally for them to own the responsibility for their actions is only further exacerbating the emotional trauma within the psyche and the form that you feel. By doing this you were only emotionally nurturing the hurt. In modern therapies, whether it be psychological therapies or New Age modalities, love is portrayed to be the cure-all of everything, especially self-love. I spent many years personally trying to accomplish this self-love and found for myself that it was only a band-aid fix. All that it amounts to is shifting your emotional focus from one target to another. I don’t see swapping emotions and targets as a cure to the emotional and psychological trauma. I found for me that it caused more emotional and psychological trauma, because when I couldn’t maintain the foal emotions, I ended up emotionally tormenting myself for my failure and creating more psychological trauma in the process. Emotional neutrality did not come from me once I crossed into the 2nd cog. I achieved it by setting aside the ego while I was still operating in 1st cog. The emotions balanced on their own and from this point of view, without emotions clouding my judgement, I was able to see my own responsibility in my trauma. I could acknowledge that it didn’t serve my Psoyca (spirit) one iota and it gave me the strength to make the choice to let it go. No, this choice was not easy, but it was the only thing that worked to release me from the psychological hold to become a psoychological cure. Taking responsibility is not the same as taking the blame."
And this is the second part:
"Now, there are 2 aspects of emotional trauma: the psychological aspect and the energetic programming that embeds in the cells from the abuse. One reinforces the other in a continual loop because it’s driven by the emotions. Modern psychological therapies address the psychological aspect, but psychology has yet to embrace the concept of selling their programs created by the trauma. One can come to terms with their psyche over the abuse and trauma but the energetic programming still resides in the cells and can at any given moment trigger the program to create the anxiety and emotional recall of the trauma. This is why modern psychological therapies do not work in the long term. Removing the cellular trauma without fixing the psychological aspect will be a temporary fix because the psyche can always reinstall the trauma with the emotions. Endall talks about using cell talk in his book “Demystifying the Mystical” and we will further be elaborating on it in the Second Cognition Toolbox book. One of the reasons that we do not openly share this method in great detail publicly is because it takes a lot of responsibility to use the tool for it to be the most effective and because someone can do more damage than harm when they don’t understand the process and abuse it. It’s also a very personal process and the instructions are not one-size-fits-all. Your physical form has a consciousness independent of your Psoyca and this consciousness is intelligent, but it’s also very literal. And this consciousness is not the ego virus, it’s the body mind. This consciousness works in cooperation with your Psoyca so words do not really matter when they don’t align with your thoughts. There are many people that want to heal themselves from the trauma but they also like the badge of honor that this trauma brings them. In essence it defines them. So even when they say they want to be healed, clinging to the trauma as an identifier, conflicts with the words when they say they want to let go of the trauma. And in one sense they have power but in another they don’t because the meaning of the words that flow from our mouths aren’t necessarily the defining thoughts within our psyche when we say those words. How many times have you said or heard others say “I’m a rape survivor”, “I’m a cancer survivor”, “I’m an abuse survivor”. These are declarations of victimhood. This mantra may give them emotional strenght but it is further locking the trauma into the cells of the system. This trauma is an emotional event the person still embraces, even in a negative fashion. The program won’t release it until you could stand up and say: “I’m done with this” and mean it and stop identifying yourself with it. I have personally been through many of the trials and tribulations that others have experienced and although I made the claims of survivor hood in my past, I wasn’t able to heal from it and be strong within myself without the labels until I let it go. Experiences are just experiences, the good, the bad and the ugly. They are not things that define anyone unless in their mind, in their psyche. They choose it as a label to define themselves. Surviving isn’t what gives us strength. Living is what strengthens us. When we are “surviving”, are we truly living? Are you really ready to heal from your trauma? Are you psychologically ready to take that shit out of the closet, pack it in a suit case or five and leave them on the curb to carry out with the rest of the trash that clutters your life? Are you really ready to live a free life without victimhood and/or survivorhood? These are the questions you need to ask yourself. When you can find the answer without getting emotional, you’ll be ready to let it go."